Bipolar Thoughts

It has been two and a half weeks since my first treatment and I finally feel back to normal.

My head feels like it is screwed on properly, my memory is more intact, I feel well rested in spite of my sleep pattern, I’m eating way less since being off a pill known for driving up your weight, I’m getting along with my daughter, and everything just feels good.

I say despite my sleep because I am having a hard time sleeping lately. Rough falling asleep, waking up in the middle of the night for hours, and waking before my alarm clock most every morning. I feel rested and not tired at all, but this will catch up with me.

I wish I could explain how weird I felt from my ECT until just a couple days ago. Just kinda in a daze and hard to put things together or figure things out. I had a very difficult time problem solving for a long time. That is all back to normal now, or at least very close.

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Well, it has been a long couple of weeks.

I am happy to report that I am back at work during the day and feeling really good. I feel more than slightly odd though. I don’t really know how to describe it but I just feel differently about myself than I did before I had the ECT treatment.

Well here is the whole story, at least all that I can remember:

I attempted suicide, made an appointment with my psychiatrist, he wanted me to go do ECT through a colleague of his. I made an appointment with him a couple days later and he wanted me to do ECT but said I needed to go inpatient for a week before he would do the ECT. I went inpatient at Royal Oak Beaumont.

A couple things about the facility there: it was really nice and clean and I enjoyed my time there. Almost everyone had been to other hospitals and preferred Beaumont (same is true in my experience). There were a lot of people there with a lot of different ailments. A good number of the people there were there for eating disorders and it was difficult for me to be around that. I have practically no experience with that world and there it was right in front of me and I felt terrible for these girls.