Bipolar Thoughts

I am going camping this weekend so I wont be posting on Saturday. So, enjoy this extra post tonight and I will talk to you all on Monday!


Well, I stumbled across an interesting form of therapy that I had never heard much about when a friend was talking about a movie on Facebook.

The therapy is called ACT, which stands for acceptance and commitment therapy. It is somewhat related to a type of therapy I am currently working on called DBT or dialectical behavior therapy. I have a workbook on DBT specifically for bipolars with suicidal ideation.

I don’t know much about therapy techniques. This is a new area of study for me lately. But what I do know is that CBT, cognitive behavioral therapy, is basically what I have been given my whole life. In CBT you are often asked to expose yourself. Once you a vulnerable they often try to dig at something making you uncomfortable to make you confront it. I believe they call that exposure therapy. And it is the hardest part. Therapists don’t often give advice or insight, although sometimes they relate stories. Once you have exposed a way you think or feel, then they ask you to change that aspect of yourself, or at least modify it so it fits into your life better. Sometimes there are lifeskill training sessions where they go over how you should deal with a situation. And then they ask you to track your changes and report back often. A lot of therapy of this kind is going over things you already thought you resolved, because you haven’t. And they know you haven’t based on how you are tracking.


There is a big trend out there now, and it is one that many of my friends prescribe to, where people are insisting that vinyl records sound better than their digital counterparts.

I’ll say this, they sound different. Vinyl sounds warmer, especially if you use an amplifier that utilizes vacuum tubes, and it has a bunch of pops and hums and all that stuff that is a sign of how imperfect it is. People find that shit endearing apparently.

Here is the flat out truth: if the album is short, like 30 minutes or less, and pressed on a 12” LP, then that album can have better resolution than a CD, or even a high density audio file.

But there are a lot of factors. The main one is that it has to be a short album. Anything pushing an hour and the needle has a lot less room to track the song, giving up fidelity and volume (you can go read on your own why that happens). The needle, just through the act of playing the album, creates scratches on it that reduce the fidelity. And let’s not forget that most people today are using a solid state power amp or a digital receiver to amplify the sound that reduces the quality.

Bipolar Thoughts

One of my major downfalls as a person is that I am constantly comparing myself to others.

Have you ever noticed that you never compare yourself to the people you are clearly doing better than, just the ones you perceive as being better than you? Like, I always feel fat, and I compare myself to all of my skinny or average friends and family. Why don’t I ever look at average America and feel better? Maybe I need to start watching “My 600 Pound Life” with my wife.

I think comparisons can be a good thing. When I was a kid, I always compared myself to the kids smarter than me, or better musicians than me (those were the big two areas for me) and it always drove me to do more, learn more, study more, practice more. It was very enabling for me. It was my drive in a lot of ways.