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I have a habit of finding the best or smartest or most talented person in a setting, and becoming close friends with them.

My long time best friend is generally considered one of the nicest most genuine people any of us know. He was the person everyone was hoping would show up at parties, a million girls wanted to date him, all that crap. He went on to do very well in college and become a successful professional in a very interesting field that people love to talk to him about.

And I always felt great when I could interrupt a conversation about him to remind everyone that he was my best friend. Even today, in our third decade of friendship, I still feel like the girl dating the quarterback.

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Detroit Tigers

I think most every Tiger’s fan will agree that Nick Castellanos is a rather frustrating player.

First, he came up as the Tiger’s #1 prospect. He was untouchable for years. They shifted his position around just to accommodate him at the big league level (they were able to shift back after the Prince trade). People have been down on him because of his low batting average. People have been down on him because of his defense. But the Tigers keep playing him daily, and when he plays like he has lately, it makes them look kinda smart.

So who is the real Castellanos? Do the stats tell us anything?

We will start with the easy part, his defense. I won’t bore you with too much info because I think it might get boring early. But let’s look at some stats anyway.

This might surprise some of you, but Castellanos is leading the American League in Fielding % at 3B this year, which is exactly why that stat means literally nothing. Basic stats will show us that he generates 2.62 outs per 9 innings while the league average 3B will generate 2.66, probably also surprising that he is so close to average. His total field zone rating estimates that he cost the Tigers 10 runs so far this year and will add 3 more to that total by end of season. This equates to about -1 win in terms of WAR. For comparison 0 is average, and last year he was at a staggering -27 runs, almost -3 wins in WAR.

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Bipolar Thoughts

I am aware that more often than not my tone on this blog comes off as whiny and woe-is-me like. I suppose that is what happens when you try to relate every aspect you can think of, of a disease that is mostly a negative part of your life.

I have mentioned before how I have been blessed to have had such willing and loving family to help me through my parent’s divorce, and support me through high school and college. And I really don’t think I can ever really express the level of gratitude I have for those people and things they did.

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Bipolar Thoughts

I wanted to talk a little bit more in depth about mania, since I am currently in that cycle, and what my personal experiences with it are.

I would like to first qualify this that I have only ever had maybe three full blown manic episodes in my life, and two of them were very recently. I deal, like most bipolars, mostly with depression, hypomania, and mixed states.

And I am going to start by saying something that will make doctors cringe: hypomania is always good. I have never once had a poor hypomanic experience. You need less sleep, less food, you have more energy, you are more creative, you are motivated, you get shit done. It is awesome. I totally recommend it for anyone who hasn’t yet tried it. I have heard bipolars compare their manic states to an experience similar to cocaine. I can see why people get addicted.

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Bipolar Thoughts

I have never really had a negative experience regarding people and my bipolar disorder.

When I first attempted suicide, the two people I told never told anyone (or if they did, word never got back to me). I was out of school for more than a week but no one approached me about why I had been gone and I never caught any flak at all.

When I first had to tell an employer that I was missing several days of work because I was depressed, I was met with comfort and reassurance that my job was not in danger. I had similar experiences in two jobs following that as well. My employers have always displayed patience and compassion with me.

And the two times I have been hospitalized as an adult, I was working for two different companies and both of them told me to take all the time I needed and get healthy before coming back. One of those companies did end up asking me to not come back, but I was away from the office for nine months, with the exclusion of a couple weeks right in the middle of it all. So I think they were more than generous.

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Pretending to Amuse

We have some updates on our favorite revamped 90’s TV shows. Jason shares a different take on religion and homosexuality. We discuss a couple superhero movie trailers that were released at SD Comic-Con, and how excited we are for the new Batman franchise. Jason shares his intial thoughts on fatherhood and the top three things currently pissing him off. Also, do they have galatic years in the Star Wars universe?

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I’ve never really talked about this before, not even with a doctor or a counselor, but seeing as today was the first day of classes at my Alma Mater, LTU, it seems appropriate. I still get the same anxiety that I had as a kid about going back to school.

And I mean that every summer, when Back to School signs go up and commercials come on, I get terrible anxiety. It feels the exact same as when I was in school, except I’m not. And, I’m not going to sit in a classroom any time in the foreseeable future.

I don’t recall my feelings about school when I was really young. I probably enjoyed it. But as I got into high school, I dreaded it. I hated going back. I hated waking up every morning. I could never wait until I got out every afternoon and every summer. Any day I could stay home, I did. I hated it.

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Detroit Tigers

Dombrowski wasn’t unemployed very long, was he?

Within two weeks of being fired the Red Sox hired him to be the President of Baseball Operations. He held that position with the Tigers, and well as President of Business, CEO, and GM.

Ben Cherrington, the current GM of the Red Sox will not be returning next year, even though Dombrowski reportedly offered him the position. They just won the World Series in 2013. They just signed a ton of huge money free agent contracts. They are having a terrible season.

I cannot decide which is the bigger knee jerk reaction?

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Bipolar Thoughts

I talked earlier about some hallucinations I was having, or at least just had on two separate occasions.

I just got home from my psychiatrist, and I informed him of the psychosis and he promptly told me that he did not think that those visions classified as psychosis.

In fact, he didn’t think they had anything to do with mental illness at all.

He said they were more in line with seizures, or strokes.

He also informed me that in some very rare cases, ECT can trigger additional seizures.

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