Bipolar Thoughts

There is a point, once you have played an instrument long enough, that watching other people play becomes challenging. Actually, to be perfectly honest, it goes both ways. Watching most people is a challenge while watching a few becomes extraordinary.

I think a lot of it is that the mystery is gone. You understand how everything works, you know how you would approach it, and you are looking for that person to either make the logical choice, or completely surprise you. When something isn’t as profound as you could imagine it being, you get frustrated. When something is derivative, or too easily come to, or too obvious, you are upset, and when something is poorly executed you are furious.

I imagine the experience is similar for anyone who has practiced practically anything for long enough.

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Detroit Tigers

News came this week that Ausmus will likely be fired at the end of the season.

This shouldn’t surprise anyone for two reasons. First, with a new GM usually comes a new manager and entirely new staff. Second, the team has terribly underperformed under Ausmus, especially this year where they are competing for worst record in the American League right now.

So the decision shouldn’t surprise you, but much like the Dombrowski firing, the timing is questionable and the way it is going down is terrible.

Apparently this was leaked to the news from a staffer, and the front office is denying just to save face. But I am sure the report is accurate. The question becomes, why did this staffer know? Why did the staffer know before Ausmus? Why did the staffer talk?

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Bipolar Thoughts

Here are a few things that helped me get into my suicidal states, and the things that got me out of them:

As I’ve said before on this blog, I have had three attempts.

Once was in high school and occurred immediately after my first uptick from deep depression following my first major break-up. This is a common thing for me, and I have found that I am not alone in that I am not suicidal in my lowest points, but I am very vulnerable directly after a break from them.

Bipolar Thoughts

This week is suicide prevention week, and I have some thoughts on the issue, so why not write about it?

A number of years ago, not that many, just a few, the phrase “suicide is 100% preventable” entered our lexicon. I don’t know how, or why, or from where, but I think it does a major disservice to survivors and the mental health community.

First, how about we look at some facts!

Suicide is often paired with mental illness, including substance abuse, at about a 90% clip. Pretty staggering. But that also means that 10% of people who off themselves are not mentally ill or abusing substances.

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I went to a rather large Labor Day party this past weekend that included a lot of family, and a lot of friends that I do not see very often.

Oddly enough, five different people decided to bring up this blog to me and tell me anything ranging from “I read it sometimes, not all the time, but sometimes” to “you should write a book”. And in this number of five I am counting both of my grandparents as one person.

Pretending to Amuse

We discuss why Jason’s son will probably become the next Batman, we make an Interstellar correction, we marvel at the expanse of the universe, and talk about meeting an alien species. We pin down Bill Murray’s best roles, and discuss the best comedic actors of our lifetime. Jason explains his hatred for women comedians, and why Jason Bateman is the best straight man in the business. Plus, is this the saddest show ending of all time?

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I have an amicable relationship with all of my old friends and girlfriends, except one. It has been shocking how many of them read this blog even though we don’t talk. I was lucky enough to make a lot of friends pretty much everywhere I have been, high school, college, all of my jobs. Some of those friendships faded naturally, some I let go of, some let go of me I’m sure, some are still around even if they shouldn’t be, and a lot are still going strong due mainly to the internet and cell phones.

There are two things that really strike me when you do actually meet face to face with someone you have not talked to in a long time.

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Detroit Tigers

Well, the Tigers are in last place. We haven’t seen that this late in a season since, I dunno when, like, 2004? It is a sad stretch drive for the Tigers. The air is out of the sails and no one is really paying attention anymore.

Here is the worst part, two of the guys they got back in trades that they hoped would be integral to the rotation next year are either injured or getting lit up consistently.

Here is the best part, Verlander is once again dominant in a way we have not seen in at least three years.

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Well, moving to a single essay per posting I think is working rather well! My traffic has increased significantly, and it is nice to keep a steady traffic flow throughout the week.

What I wanted to get away from was a massive amount of people reading one article but not the other one or two I posted that day. I would often have a read count of over 150 for one essay an under 40 for another posted on the same day just minutes apart.

The issue now is that I am not reaching those levels of 150 reads anymore. Maybe I haven’t written an article worth it, I don’t know, but it has not happened since I went to this system. Now, pretty much every essay will reach 60 reads and just kinda die there.

So I guess I have to weigh my pros and cons. The last option is that I go to a single essay per posting system (clearly working) but take my posting schedule back down to three days a week. Maybe then I will have both the amount of content and the correct amount of distance between each posting to make it work.

I will ride out the system I have now for at least another month. We will see where it goes from there. Maybe it is time I produce less content at higher quality. But, at the same time, I like the conversational quality of my writing and I don’t want it to feel too produced.

Who knows?

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Bipolar Thoughts

There have been two very interesting developments in the world of psychotropic pharmacology lately.

The first was a couple months ago, I might have mentioned it, where they are developing a new type of anti-depressant that might be effective in bipolars.

Here is the scoop: there are two types of anti-depressants, MAOIs and SSRIs. MAOIs are very rarely used anymore. They are old and full of nasty side effects, although the efficacy rate was pretty high on that class of drugs. They just aren’t really around, except in special cases. SSRIs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors) are the main class of anti-depressants.

The concept is simple: serotonin makes you happy, let’s prevent the serotonin from being absorbed by the brain so it stays out there and keeps you happy. So they designed a drug that inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, get it?

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