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Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and this is my final post of the year. Things are busy both at work and at home, for all of us I am sure, and I think it might do me some good to schedule in this little holiday break every year. I want to be able to spend my nights and weekends with my family enjoying the holidays, and all the movie watching, carol singing, show going, family dining, cookie baking, snow playing that it all entails, without obsessing over pageviews and SEO and most importantly, content.

I will continue to write during the break, of course, especially with the recent change in my mood, but it will be unscheduled. And unless something really profound happens, it will go un-posted until the new year.

I do plan on republishing old content that strikes me in some way. So please come and visit the site, dig through the archives and hopefully find something that you enjoy. And of course, the podcast will continue throughout.

But onto Thanksgiving!

Pretending to Amuse

It is the big Thanksgiving episode! First we dive into the Starbuck Red Cup controversy. We talk about how to manage your time on the big day, who you spend what, where. We get into our favorite foods and what dishes we could pass on. How do the Lions fit into the day? What foods are unique to our families. And if our real lives are anything like TV shows. We also take some time to rant about social media trends this time of year. And Jason gets serious about veterans.

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The following essay goes in tandem with the post directly previous to it. Please take the time to read them both.

Well, the ‘no depression’ grace period from the ECT is officially over.

My doctor has put me back on Latuda (for depression), upped my Lithium, and put me back on Klonopin (anxiety). He has also given me his personal cell phone number and did the standard suicide screening. He appears more concerned by my current state then I am. I just want to lie in bed all day. I go back to see him mid-December.

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How do you know when things are starting to slide for you, one direction or the other?

You don’t for sure. But, the longer you live with the disease the more you sense a change.

Today is one of those days. It started yesterday, actually. All I wanted to do was go home and go to bed. When I did finally go lay in bed after dinner my wife and daughter kept coming into my room to bother me. You would think that going to bed, at anytime, would be a sign to leave someone alone. But especially going to bed before 8pm when normal bedtimes hover around 10:30. Not in my house, apparently. Not with a wife who should know the meaning of that early departure from the living room.

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Detroit Tigers

Well, in the first week of free agency the Tigers have made a number of interesting moves!

First, I will start with the 40 man roster moves.

I’m not going to get into the Rule-5 Draft, suffice it to say that players that have been around for awhile without sniffing any major league experience are available for other teams to pluck during a draft called the Rule-5. To protect a team’s very valuable prospects that are not quite major league ready, there is the 40-man roster. 25 of these men have contracts owned by the major league club. The other 15 play somewhere else in the system. Everyone on the 40 man roster is protected from Rule-5 drafting.

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My posting below is number 200 for this blog! While only 94 of them have been directly related to Bipolar Disorder, I have seen a decent amount of growth and I have been distributed through a number of websites. I feel accomplished. I never expected to have consistent readers. My own goal was to express myself and hopefully entertain you. I hope this website continues to grow and that I continue to produce content worth reading.

Thank you so much for your support!

Bipolar Thoughts

The last time I cried was earlier this summer. I was on the phone with my best friend since childhood talking about his suddenly deceased father. Both the impact of the loss of a monumental figure in my life and the devastation it was wrecking on someone as close to me as my own family was overwhelming.

I have never really been someone who cried a lot, at least from what I remember.

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I think it is inevitable that when we break up with someone, we compare ourselves to whomever they date next. Most of the time we cannot figure out why they would make such a terrible choice, or why would they go backwards so much. Sometimes they go for a big upgrade, but we are the only ones who cannot see it clearly. Sometimes we only see the faults in the upgrade, ‘oh he is really good shape. She likes to spend a lot of time with her man, and he is going to always be at the gym. That will never work’.

The phenomenon makes sense; we are too close to the situation to think rationally about it. The situation is complicated by a sex life as well. Jealousy over those who we have had sex with can be strong, especially in the aftermath of ego-shattering events like a break up.

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Pretending to Amuse

Steve recalls his trip to see Bill Burr. We discuss his humor and his style of jokes and how he deals with hecklers. We get sidetracked talking about Christmas shopping. We return to the now very credited theory of Luke Skywalker being a Sith Lord. And finally we check in on the fattest cyclist to drive across the country.

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I like to act like I am a macho guy.

In a lot of ways I play the part, facial hair, very often a full beard, I weigh 250 pounds, I drank craft beer long before it was a thing, back when I was called a beer snob by everyone I know that now loves to hang out at Hopcat and drink North Peak, I drink good whiskeys with a splash of water and bad ones on the rocks, I’ve been in rock bands, I’ve tagged half dozen broken down structures in Detroit, I know how to fire a gun and a bow and arrow and I’m good at it, I have a high tolerance for pain, I don’t tend to complain, blah blah who cares.

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