I have spent my whole life waiting for something to happen to me.
When I was in rock bands I waited to be discovered.
When I was in design school I waited for a professor to have to have me work for him.
When I started working I waited to move quickly up the ranks and be taken under the wing of a superior to be groomed into a leading position.
None of those things happened, of course. Life isn’t a movie, and even if it was, I was never the one talented enough to be lavished with attention. Not the lead role. I’m more supporting cast type.
I realized recently that I can start my own webpage and write a blog for cheap. And it is possible that people will read it and I will gain some notoriety from it. But most likely not. Most likely it will work as a living journal to get out some of my ideas and make me feel better about the fact that I’m living on a five star cruise ship stuck at port.
I haven’t decided yet if that is okay or not, but I have decided there isn’t much I can do about it.
Some days this blog will be dark and some days hopefully amusing and some days uplifting but always honest.